Inspiration by artist Dai Li

I find inspiration in the art work by artist Dai Li.

The Exhibit at Bundaberg Regional Art Gallery is called “Games We Play,” and seeks to set up metaphorical connections between the games we play and deeper experiences in life. Moments of contemplation, when we are unguarded, or when no one is watching, are moments when people can reveal their true nature. Dai Li is a ceramicist and watercolorist from Sichuan, China and educated in Jiangxi province. Her work, petite in nature yet strong in commentary shows clay sculptures depicting a slice of life. Her humor is wonderfully candid!

Inspiration makes me happy! Check out her work and get a few smiles yourself.

http://www.daili.com.au/daili.com.au/Home.html

Where in the WORLD is Susan?

Here I am, no longer in China but A U S T R A L I A. The Fall months were excruciating with a terrible medical issue that proved the medical coverage in China was a piece of paper with a red chop mark, only. Then a bout of serious food poisoning to top it off and I realized time to move on. The semester at NSFZ ended with the most delightful IB Art students sending me off with a fond farewell from Lukou Airport. Thank you Rita, Cookie, Arno and Jane for the sweet gift and hugs at the International terminal. Keep making art, you are so talented.

Many friends gave me good bye gifts, dinners out, last minute trips and so many fond memories. Mr. Chen, you and your family were a blessing to have in my life. Spring Yan and Stone thank you so much for all the lifts in your car, the trip to Suzhou for a silk bed duvet, and spending New Years with your family. Lady Ma, my maid I will miss our Sunday mornings together and communicating not knowing each others language. I enjoyed having a tailor, Mr. Lin. He created a gorgeous Chinese dress and Capri’s for me. My wonderful neighbors across the hall, thank you for watching over me. Sarah, Fino’s mom thank you for helping me at Sentosa Gardens, first of all finding my 27th story apartment that overlooked the city and the Yangtze river. Secondly for bringing me food when I was so ill. Rita and her vegan mom, thank you for helping me mail boxes to Texas and introducing me to a wonderful Vegetarian Restaurant. Jane, Ellen’s mom for being a wonderful art friend and showing me Nanjing sites. Daisy and her sweet friends in Shanghai and Xi’an for all our vacation trips! Didn’t we have some fun? I love the picture of you as a concubine and me as the Empresses!

Nan Shi Fu Zhong and my wonderful Chinese colleagues friends, what can I say? My office mates, Sue, Jenny, June and Alice, ladies I could have never asked for better friends. The library and offices down the hall with Esther, Shirley, Serena, Maggie, Tracy, David, Emmy and Ms. Wang, the teachers that work all day and night! The upstairs admin and teachers, Stephen, Mr. Can, Jackie, Mr. Hao, Tess, and Guo, you did so much to make my life run smooth. Thanks for getting that latte maker! To Sophia, girl I could never thank you enough for all your expertise, care and patience. “Let all my troubles pass through the hollow places,” you said describing the stone Lotus you gave me. You are a wise woman. To Gong Yan, the leader of the tribe, love your teachers as they work hard for the IB program.

My best friends Michael from Britain and Peter from Australia, how can I thank you for you brotherly friendship? I adore you both, for the care, time and lunches we shared. You were there for me in so many ways. Friendship is something I treasure and I will love you both forever and ever! We were the “Three Musketeers!”

“There was something in the water,” as Americans say when everyone gets pregnant. Drinking Nanjing water is no different. Sophia and Jenny had boys last year! Tracy just had a wee one this week. Alice and Sawyer, next month it is your turn and what good parents you will be. I wish I could be there when your daughter is born. Serena will be next! Oh my, so many sweet moments I will share from afar. I will be waiting to hear from each of you about the wonders your children are creating in your lives.

Lastly to all the national curriculum art teachers that befriended me. The art teachers are inspirations. The graceful dance teacher next class over, what a marvelous dancer and kind soul. I learned Tai Chi from the retired teachers, they were so patient with me. Then the sweet janitor lady that gave me hugs daily.

My graduating Seniors, Joy and Iris of higher level– you are talented young ladies! Iris, Elaine, Stephanie, Tiffany, Karen, and Willson of standard level, isn’t it nice to be finished with your Visual Art’s CRB? Move on, go to college and stay motivated with art or whatever you want to be. Cheng Peng, you are now at SCAD! You busted out of China early and are the happiest I have ever seen you—become the artist you want to be. My Juniors—Angela, Ellen, Rita, Cookie, Arno, William, Peter, Kevin, Jane, Becky, Sam, Fino, Amy, and Moon! Kids what can I say? You are all on track with IB, almost all 7’s and each of you totally motivated with art. I will miss you guys and remember you the most! You were the teenage art blessings in my life. The 10th grade foundation art students, to the fifty of you keep speaking English daily, stay focused and motivated, you are the future of NSFZ!

Now that I have said my thank you’s to China, what am I doing? I moved to Australia, retired and am relaxing. It is warm if not hot here, I am barefoot and happy. Learning to “BE” and not “DO!”

What is the meaning of life?

Ever really wonder what the meaning of life is?  Why was I put here in the first place?  Where did I come from?  What is the purpose in my life?  Maybe I was hatched in a nest?  Oops, that is a thought a chicken has.  For that matter can chickens think?  And what really came first the chicken or that darn egg?

In reality,  the reason we are here revolves around our beliefs or dogmas.  It could be our belief in God, our Christ-self, the universal consciousness, our Buddha nature, a supreme being or deity, maybe a supernatural being or simply a creator.  We are taught about a higher being by our parents through our upbringing.  We each have different beliefs.  Ever get in a discussion about God with someone who thinks differently?  Ding-dong  Jehovah Witness calling!  Quite a contest to see who has the better God, isn’t it?

During the past two weeks, while I was sick, I realized how very alone I am.  Being ill puts a whole new perspective on the meaning of life.  When I was in bed for days I began to understand true aloneness.  No one was here to help me, care for me, or just chat with me.  It was just me and myself.  I began to ponder how did I get to China.  Last year at this time I was in Allen, Texas teaching school, living by myself, and wondering what had happened to my life.   It was like a volcano had erupted in my life and just devastated every part of my daily living.  What could I do to stop the continuous magma flow?  I came to China to remove all the horrific events from my mind.  Did it work?  Yes, I would say I was just picked up from one side of the earth and sat on the other side.  In China nothing is the same and everything must be thought out completely.  The process of living here has kept my mind busy and in a way it plugged up my volcano, like a wine cork in a bottle.   Moving here stripped me of all my material possessions and the people in my life.  I now must look at myself and really see who I am.

I think about my “issues” of caring for people and why I throw myself into obsessive relationships with men, teaching long hours, and multi-tasking  where I need to be in control and stay so busy.  My friend Patti told me the time here with my aloneness would make me look at me.  As if removing all the extraneous stuff from my periphery and viewing the raw me.  It  is the time and the place to find out who I am.

The emerging of the real Susan is coming to light.  Always a kind person and one who would do everything for you, she is one not  in-charge of everyone’s everything, anymore!  Still generous, she now allows others to pay her way, pick up things for her and take care of her without always doing it herself.  She listens to advice from friends when things get difficult and actually uses their advice.  She has even been known to write it down and save the wisdom for later.  She still has a tendency to want to be first, something she has always done, but now she will stand back and let someone answer first, just listen and follow behind.  It is a new sensation.  A different, sometimes uncomfortable feeling.   It is like changing your karma, making a different path, trying to correct a crazy wrong that always seemed right.  She likes the new sweet soul shining through a delicate soft gossamer aura.

Life works if you let it.  May you in your aloneness see who you really are.   Above all, may you love that sweet breath of  life the great creator blew into your being.  Yes, you wonderful you.

I got the flu for New Years and experienced socialized medicine

What a New Years week, I believe I have the flu.  Started feeling bad on New Years eve and ended up in the hospital four days later.  Have you been so sick that going to the hospital actually made you feel relieved?

I was glad Alice took me by cab to the Nanjing Drum Tower Hospital.  We stood in a line outside the hospital building to get an entrance ID card.  It’s a cold little room with plastic flaps for doors, everyone bundled up and in compressed lines waiting on women in surgical masks to make your card.  I was handed a card with my name on it: 苏珊 Yes those 2 Chinese characters say Susan, no last name needed.   Cost 1 yuan.  Then we queued up to get an appointment with the doctor.  Must have been 10 lines of people in the hospital foyer.  When I walked in, could have sworn it was a train station, people in hats, scarfs, gloves and jackets lined up to pay on one side and the other side for appointments.  Not very warm in here, someone needs to turn the heat on.

We are sent to the third floor, a large lobby which Alice bypasses.  She walks directly  into one of the many rooms skirting the lobby.  The one she picks has three white coated doctors who are examining people at computer station desks.  We stood behind a sick elderly man with his concerned son and mom.  They were trying to get him admitted, but no rooms.  My turn I plopped on the official old wooden examining stool.  I was asked some questions by a lady doctor in a white trench coat and a pale blue surgical mask.  Alice translated.  Now I need to have my temperature taken.  We walked back to the third floor lobby, another train station waiting room, cold bench like seats and many sick people.  The nurse in her dingy white more of a dull grey nurse uniform and old fashioned white hat pinned to her head handed me a thermometer which I was to return to her in three minutes.  While Alice was tending to me and ran to get a book to record my medical information I realized these nurses had the same kind of nursing hats my mom wore in the 1960’s .  My mom always told me if the hats don’t have a black strip then they aren’t registered nurses.  No one had a black strip so what kind of nurses are these?

No temperature the unregistered nurse said, back to the lady doctor we go.  Waiting behind another sick person on the wooden stool, I notice how dingy this place is.  It looks like Cox Junior High School, where I went to middle school, some forty years ago, a building as old as Methuselah, back then.  I can still smell the old stairwells, dank with bathroom odor.   I sit down and this time she wants to listen to my heart, no need to take off two sweaters with twenty people in the room, just listen right through the woolen garments.  Next she wants to look down my throat but the light is bad, she walks  behind me and motions for me to swizzle around.  I do, to see a half a dozen sick Chinese people standing and looking at me.  I open my mouth, she compresses my tongue with a stick, she and the Chinese look down my throat!  Quite an experience, one burned into the recesses of my mind.

Now we need blood, off to another floor, another queue, another  form and pay three yuan for a blood test.  Take a number and then wait for one of ten lines to have blood removed.  My number is flashing atop of a window with a person underneath who draws blood.  My arm is placed on a pile of  disposable papers, tourniquet tightened, needle the size of a hose and I get a stick.  I forgot to tell someone, I pass out at the site of blood.  “Turn my head, turn my head!,” I say to myself.  All done, compress firmly with two Qtips and orange yellow substance on my arm. What happened to tiny needles and alcohol?   We sit in one of many cold metal chairs awaiting the results which will be retrieved  from the computerized ATM-like machine using my ID card in twenty minutes.  I am pondering the floor about now, and thinking when was the last time this was mopped?  Do they know what disinfectant is?  The patterns are nice on the tiles and other ridiculous mind roaming thoughts.   Suddenly Alice is up and getting the results, which are printed when she inserts my card.

Returning to the third floor and back to the not so private doctors room, and another line.  Alice is listening to the sick people in front of me, turning to translate their woes.  My turn, back to the old familiar stool, this time she writes all kinds of chicken scratch in my booklet that Alice got for me.  Chinese doctors write as bad as American doctors, one thing in common.   She has read my blood report and I have a bacterial infection, the flu or something.  I will need a round of  antibiotics, aspirin and cough syrup.  Diagnosed and down to the first floor where the pharmacy is located.  Hand my prescription to another white coated personal and with in minutes, I hear “su-san, su-san’  It’s my name, I can understand Chinese!  I get my prescriptions and out to pay.  Another queue and 130 RMB, cheap…. Lets go home and too bed.

Socialized medicine in China…. Obama come check it out!

Auld Lang Syne – The Burning Bowl Process

Happy New Years from my roof top.

New Years Eve is the time to purge your 2010 unpleasant happenings.  Easiest way is to create a “burning bowl ceremony.”  Start with a small sheet of paper.  List the old stuff you want to release and cleanse from your life and mind.  Spend some time as you recall these old thoughts.  Soon you will  free them into the Universe and transmute them into the light.  Ignite your paper and throw it in a bowl and watch all those bad moments burn up in a blaze of fire.  Be careful and don’t burn your fingers!   Take a big sheet of paper and write all the good things you want to attract to your life to replace the old things you just released for the new year.  Fold it, put it in an envelope, seal it, and write “Do not open until July 1, 2011”.   Then in six months open it and check your progress.

Happy New Years from the most beautiful roof top in the world, Nanjing China.

Love to all!

Christmas 2010 in China

Christmas dinner at the Parkview Dingshan with the IB faculty.

Peter and Michael, the men in my life.  These guys keep me sane!  They are my best friends.

A Vienna Latte at the mall with colleagues on Christmas eve.

Christmas dinner with my friends, Armando, Gina, Santa Peter and me.  The rabbits are the symbol for the Chinese New Year.

Snow Mountain Mediation on a frosty day

This is the actual Snow Mountain in China.

It snowed today and I rode my bike to work in the falling flakes, actually delightful.  Therefore, I am writing about snow inspirations.  Jon gave me a book to read called The Secret of the Golden Flower by Thomas Cleary.  It is a Chinese Taoist book about mediation.  After reading it, I did some research on some of the terms and found an interesting Taoist meditation called Snow Mountain Meditation.

It’s simple to do.  Sit upright in a chair.  Take a couple nice cleansing breaths, release the tension from your head, neck and shoulders.  Smile and relax.  Put your attention in the area in front of your tailbone maybe a half inch from the pelvic floor.  This is the Snow Mountain area or sometimes called the Golden Urn.  In this space, deep in your belly, visualize a mountain of snow with a very warm sun shinning down from above, as though there were a sun in your lower belly, shining down on the snow mountain.  Continue to visualize, as the sun warms and melts the snow.  The snow melts and flows down the mountain to create a lake.  Steam rises and nourishes your entire body.  Repeat this visualization, warming sun melting snow, creating a lake and steam rising.  In a couple minutes you should feel renewed and refreshed.

I thought this was a lovely meditation and a nice visual to practice on a snowy day.  Let me know the outcome of your snow mediation.   Just hit reply, I am curious what you visualized and felt.

Lions everywhere

Chinese guardian lions, known also as stone lions and often (incorrectly) called “Foo Dogs” in the West, are a common representation of the lion in pre-modern China. They are believed to have powerful mystic protective powers that has traditionally stood in front of Imperial palaces, Imperial tombs, government offices, Buddhist temples, and the homes of government officials and the wealthy.  Pairs of guardian lions are common decorative and symbolic elements at the entrances to restaurants, hotels, supermarkets and other structures, with one sitting on each side of the entrance.  The lions are always created in pairs, with the male playing with a ball and the female with a cub.  It is auspicious to have pairs but four is an unlucky number much like our thirteen.

Lions are very much a part of my site seeing tours and I photograph all the different poses a lion can make.   My astrological sign is Leo, no wonder I am attracted to the lion.

Being treated nicely. How to make it happen.

“Do unto others as you would have them do unto you.”

Who wrote this?  This has been in our culture and taught to children for years.  I recall it on my 3rd grade wooden ruler inscribed “The Golden Rule.”   Any idea?  Think a moment.  Was it an American politician, president perhaps, maybe even Mark Twain.  Wrong, all wrong it was Confucius.  Didn’t know you had been taught the Chinese philosophy of Confucius since you were a child?  You have an international perspective, yes?  This is a wonderful belief, but do you practice it?

Let’s think about it, how is it you want to be treated?  Do you like others to open doors for you, not talk back to you or maybe just not raise their voice?  You could make a list of actions on the way you wish to be treated.  This would give you a picture on the things you need to work on.   What is your major one belief?  Ask yourself, “I want people to treat me ___________.”  Fill in the blank.   My personal belief is:  I like people to look me in the eye and speak honestly to me.  What did you decide your need is?

Now lets put this into action.  For you to recieve this treatment, you would need to do the same to others, correct?  For me I want others to be honest so I would look you in the eye and speak honestly to you.  This can be a disaster if I get too honest in my actions!  Therefore I am learning to watch my honest comments.  Being honest can actually hurt feelings. So I work daily on this along with other attitudes I value.   I think expectations are important here. What is it you expect from others?   This is a life long commitment you make to yourself, to treat others as if they were you.  Many of our great masters did this, not just Confucius (500 BC), but Jesus, Buddha and Mohammad. (It is in Matthew 7.12).  Maybe Jesus studied Asian philosophizes too.

Think about the next time some one cuts in front of you in traffic, instead of yelling at them, think he’s in a hurry he needs to get in front of me.  He could be hurrying to pick up his child, let him go and bless him.  Maybe he’s not, but bless him anyway.  What would it hurt to bless someone who is miserable?  Nothing, you just sent some sweet energy to someone who probably needs it.  Do it more often and you will find you are happier and more content with yourself.  Maybe next time you cut in front of someone, you look up apologize with a wave, they smile back and let you in.  It happens, good things really happen.  (By the way I miss driving my car in China, so do an extra wave for me when you are out driving and get stuck in traffic!)  That would be a happy thought you could send me.  Sweet energy everywhere.

Today work on treating others nicely, or as Confucius would say create a more “benevolent society,” one of his favorite set of words.